..Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder..

I am beautiful..

No matter what they say..

Words can't bring me down..

I actually don't understand why there are lots of girls and ladies out there should say that they are not beautiful. I mean, everybody has their own beauty. As long as your heart is beautiful enough to appreciate whatever you have around you, confidence in yourself will arise without you even know it. And that, the fact, make the beauty glows out of you. Yes, darlings! It's the heart who demands the praise, not the face who demands the make-ups! :)

Eyh! But wait! You have to be intelligent enough to pair what you wear. Got what I mean? Yup, you are very right. If you wear something that doesn't suit you, make you look what some people called S.T.U.P.I.D, it is very truly wrong, okay! Remind yourself to be just nice and not over in fashion. If you do, I am afraid that people will freak out. Tsk!

Cantik luar, cantik dalam, cantik dengar sini..

Kalau cantik, senyum cantik, mesti cantik lagi..

Senyum sikit, nak tengok ada tak lesung pipit..

Kalau tak ada pun aku masih mahu cubit..

So, my sayangs, one thing for sure, a lady will look so beautiful if your attitude and your heart is beautiful. Smile. And always smile. It is not just because of sedekah but it's also for your own beauty too. 2 in 1, who does not want it, right? Let us be beautiful because of ALLAH, who will always appreciate the beauty in you, so that your eyes may glow with the beauty you have inside. I am sure most of the people will be impressed, even though the beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.. :)

..Emotions..

I know there is something wrong, but I don't know what is it..

I miss someone, but I don't know who is that someone..

I am sad, but I don't know why..

Familiar with this kind of emotions? Yup.. I am having it..now..it's been few days though..Argghh! Positive mood, please come to me..I beg you..please.. I hate this feeling. Hate this so much! Urgh! *cry*

..November 11, 2011..

It was 2 years back. Waking up a bit late after being so tired that night, she got a call. "I'm going back. Can we meet for a moment?". Oh my God! It was like having thunder in her heart. No one can ever see it. Only those who know will realize. Luckily she was all alone. "OK. When and where?", she replied short. "I'll wait for you downstairs". "OK".

There they were, sitting like nothing happened. Trying so hard to be so normal. It was hard, since the girl don't know how to lie. "What time is your flight?", she asked him. "Afternoon. Will make a move shortly. Just wanna meet you before I leave.", he answered. "About your question last night, all I can say is we are just friends. There's nothing between us. I love you like I love all my friends out there. Nothing special. Hope you can understand. Whatever it is, you are still my best friend, and I am ready for that", he said.

She stunned. Silence. Slowly the tears were coming. Coming and coming again. She wiped the tears. All the words were lost. Suddenly she felt like she can't stay too long with him or she'll broke down. "OK. I think I better make a move. I got something to do upstairs. Have a safe journey. Take care.", she suddenly said. He was shocked, and hoped that the girl will stay a bit longer, but she decided to just go. She packed her lappy and go.

Inside her room, she cried so hard. The tears didn't stop. She lost. Didn't know what to do, how it could be that way. She didn't know what she felt. Anger, sad, shocked. Everything was mixing inside her heart. She's crying and crying with the hopes that all the pain could go away from her..

Slowly she's accepting the reality. Even though until now she can still remember that moment, but she take it as a better way shown by ALLAH to have a better love. Alhamdulillah, she's happy. And she always pray for the guy's happiness. The guy he used to love before....

..Salam Aidiladha..

Pengorbanan yang diterima, bersyukurlah..

Pengorbanan yang diberi dan dilupai, redhailah..

Pengorbanan yang dihulur dan dihargai, alhamdulillah..

Semoga keberkatan dari-Nya sentiasa bersama kita, insyaALLAH..

Salam Aidiladha.. :)

..Dear my yayang..

Dear my yayang,

Alhamdulillah. November datang lagi. Setahun sudah. And we are engaged. I am so grateful to have you in my life. Apapun yang kita lalui, apapun orang kata, still our love has grown stronger and stronger. Banyak dugaan yang kita dah lalui. Banyak bisikan luar yang cuba pisahkan kita, but our love has also inspired certain people around us to have a better relationship. Thank you ALLAH..

Thank you yayang, for all the laughter, tears, arguments, thoughts, love, everything. Thank you for all sacrifices that you've made for me along this 1 year we be together. Thank you for convincing me to give the very best answer for your magic question after 3 days we met. I will never forget that moment yang. Never. Walaupun ada yang mengatakan I salah buat pilihan, tapi I tetap yakin dengan you. And I always know, you are the best for me. And I can't wait for that day where we will be as one..much love!xoxo!Mwah!

p/s: this entry is dedicated to my lovely one and only fiancee, Mohd Hafiz Ismail as this month is our first anniversary together.. :)

..Judgmental - a typical Malay mindset..

Today is Wednesday. But since this morning I had a 'Monday blues' feeling. Erks! Something is not right. It is, actually, but it's not the thing that I want to focus here. Can't hide it, but can't show it either. So, let it be like how it supposed to be..

Talking to an old friend had really cheer up my day. Well, not exactly talking. We were ym-ing (where the hell did I get this word?haha!) while I was in the office (yeah!sounds naughty, I know.. =P) doing my work. And she is not a really OLD friend like someone I knew since I was in my kindergarten years. Nope. We were being friends since we were in our matriculation year. Accidentally we were in a same class and a same tutorial group. ALLAH's fate, we also went to the same university and staying in the same college. But one thing I realized while talking to her is, she always be with me. Sharing the laughters and tears. And suddenly I was laughing to myself, simply because I think it's funny to know the fact that someone you think is not your good friend is actually the one and someone you think is the one is actually not..

Judgmental. It's a typical Malaysian mind. Same goes to me here, though. I saw someone. A guy. He's so selekeh, wearing a half-buttoned shirt, slipper and walking like a lazy man. In my mind I thought, he must be a kampung man who like to berfoya-foya all the time and not having responsibilities towards his family. Or he might be a man who has 2 wives, or maybe 3. Haha! My mind is so naughty! When my fiancees food is ready, I already forgot about this man. Again, ALLAH's fate, I saw him. This time, he is with HIS WIFE and his CHILDREN. They were eating and talking happily and there were lots of foods on their table. Adoiyai.. Hahaha! I was so wrong! Pity him..

Don't make judgments towards people. Strangers or not, everybody has their own character. Sometimes you might think a person is good, but that person might also turned out not to be one. So, the best way is, don't put any hopes, and learn to accept people as who they are..

"Anyone who does not love, will not be loved either" - Prophet Muhammad (PBUH)

..It's my life, though..

Being a girl named Nur Suhailah binti Salahuddin is totally not simple. You will experience lots of hard times rather than easy one. And when i say it's not simple, i meant it. It's like you can have a moment of happiness in 5 minutes, then in another 5 minutes time, you will feel the pain. Again and again. You will lose faith even in yourself. You will love people who don't really love you and lose people you love. You will..

I still remember what my mom had teach me to go through the hardships of life. She always say "be patient and pray. ALLAH will give you the strength". Oh, how I miss her! Her laugh, her smile, her shoulder to cry on..

Whatever it is, don't ever show your tears. People never like it. All you will get is "crying is not a solution. So, stop crying" words. They just don't understand that we are crying just to release all the weaknesses we have and gain the strength again. They will never want to understand. But ALLAH do. I always believe that HE will always do..

Thank you ALLAH for giving me my strength. I know I have to face them. What to do? It's my life, though..

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