..8 weeks..

Alhamdulillah..my baby is 8 weeks already..

Never know that the morning sickness feelings are as bad as this. It's hard to even wake up from bed. My head is always spinning around, and I always throw whatever I ate no matter when and what. Everything I eat and do seems to be wrong for my body. Now I have the experience. Now I know how hard is the pregnancy times. Now I know how much we should appreciate our mothers.

To my mom, thanks for being so patient and strong to go through this for us. I really appreciate this. We love you!

To my roommate who is getting engaged this Sunday, congratulations and good luck. I am so very happy for you. And I know you will be the happiest person in the world on that day. You deserve this happiness baby. After all the tears, this is the time for you to smile. Take care. Much love! :)

..It's the moment we've awaited..

Alhamdulillah..

As per today, my baby is 6 weeks and 5 days old.. We are excited, and nervous in the same time.. And it's quite early to share my preggy moments since my baby is still small. I couldn't even see any changes to my stomach yet. According to the doctor, my baby's brain is growing fast within this week.

Lots of things I need to do and know and learn and take care of in the same time. Quite puzzled me a bit, but seems like I can cope with almost everything now. Alhamdulillah.. I got this very first chance to have a baby by myself earlier than I ever thought.

Wanna know my pregnancy signs? It's not really normal like everyone seems to have. Well, doctor said, different people have different signs. In the first place I think that I am pregnant because I keep having fever. And I ate twice as much as per normal. So we bought the home pregnancy test kit to check and the result is negative.

So, we continue our life as it is. After 10 days my period is still not coming, and I started to vomit whenever I feel hungry which is not really normal because I can stay without food for about 1 whole day, we've decided to go to the clinic. And yup, that's when I know I am pregnant. After answering all the doctor's questions, I figure out my pregnancy sign.

1. Continuously hungry, and will vomit if I don't eat.
2. Body's temperature is not stable, keeps on changing.
3. Headache all the time.
4. Period is late.
5. Mood swings.

Not normal, is it? Haha. I know. Alhamdulillah, again I feel so grateful as I don't have much difficulties. And I am so very glad to be the chosen one to carry a life inside my womb. Alhamdulillah.. :)

..Kesyukuran ini tiada taranya..

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

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